So, I'm not gonna be in Assassins. From what I've heard the whole thing is turning into a fiasco, and the show was supposedly going to be put up in three weeks. How were they planning on doing that, I wonder, if they didn't have a lead? In addition to that, I have a great deal of work both for this show and for my classes. So, although I would have loved loved loved being in that show, I will not be doing it. I was listening to the sound track on my iPod recently, the one from the broadway show, and I was getting a little wistful. "That could have been me! I could have sang that! I could have---No, no, you made a decision and you have to stick with it and it will be---aw, man I could have done something so cool with that! Think of what I could have done with that I---no! No. You can't, you have to...eeeeeehhh!!!"

I thought when I got here that I would integrate myself so well. That since everybody speaks the same language I could just make friends. However, I forgot two things: one, I'm kind of shy, and can't make friends too easily. I can make them, but just not very easily. Two, England is different from America. Surprisingly so. Being thrown into a different culture, and, moreover, coming from a country that is the object of more ire and hatred than potentially any other in the world, makes me somewhat uncomfortable. I know this is just a "me" thing and that I could probably meet some more people if I wanted to. Hopefully I will before all this is over. Anyway, that's just "me" all over: I'm in a foreign country, having what will probably be a once-in-a-lifetime exprience, and I'm stil fretting and wringing my hands like a douche. Damn.